new love

I want this blog to be to anyone out there who is in any sort of pain or hurting. If your out there and you just happen to stumble onto this, then I want you to take the time to read this. Even if it is just this one blog. I am not going to sit here and pretend to know what your going through. The truth is I don't. There is no way for me to understand. I may have gone through a similar situation and I do care and love every single person reading this. But there is only one person who knows what your going through.
The bottom line is this, if your hurting, if your struggling with depression, cutting, with anything, what ever it is there is someone out there who cares. There is someone out there who loves you. And I don't mean this I'll love you till you do what I want you to kind of love. Its not this kind of love that says that as long as you don't mess up I will love you. Its not even a love that can be given and says that I will love you forever and one month later disowns you. Its a love that will pick you up. Its a love that will hold on until you understand that there is nothing you can do that can take it away from you. Its a love that forgives, and is patient. Its a love that never gives up on you. Its a love that wants you to be with them forever. Its a love that never leaves you. Its a love that doesn't want anything in return. Its a love that you can fall into. Its a love that is there anytime you need to cry, for good or bad reasons.
I wish I could say that this love is from me or from my mom. Its not. Its not from a spouse, from a boyfriend or girlfriend. Its not a love that any person can give. Its a love that only one person can give. This person will do anything for you and has done the ultimate thing for you. He died for you. He gave his life so that you may live. He saved your life by giving his. He is the father, the healer, the savior, the lover.
"Thank you God, ..... thank you Dad for your love. Thanks for your mercy, your grace, and your compassion. Thanks for loving me so much that you picked me up when depression hit me. When I was thinking about ending everything you brought me out of it. Thanks for letting me talk to you about anything. Thanks for giving me an opportunity to help others. Whoever needs it. Thank you for being my father when I thought I didn't have one. Thank you!!!"
There is someone who can help, who can cause the pain to go away. They can take your scars and make them into beautiful artworks. They can take the wounds and heal them. I pray that if you need to read this you do and don't let them just be words on a page. Let them resonate in your hearts, they have come from mine.